I'm going to worship You forever...

January 2012:

I saw the devil in my relative's eyes earlier that day...and he was sleeping in the other room. I was asleep yet awake. My mom was sleeping next to me because I could not sleep alone & it was to be one of many nights for the next two months where I was not able to sleep alone. I had never experienced this type of fear and it was about to become worse.

Laying there in bed I heard myself worshipping God as a little girl & then it became a faint echo as if I was far away. It was as if someone was pulling that young girl away from worshipping God. All of a sudden, "it" covered my mouth & began to suffocate me telling me to STOP worshipping Him. My face began to cringe as if someone was pulling it apart and felt like a stroke of some sort. I instantly knew this was a battle...not only a physical one, but a spiritual one. I knew then what I needed to do & began to cry out to GOD in my Spirit, and not through my voice. I could simply tell the difference. I called out the name of JESUS a number of THREE times, and "it" went away. I was able to breathe. I woke up that morning with my face sore and somewhat disfigured and was unable to go to my internship that morning or even school. The devil had an agenda that night to quiet me, but  God had another agenda which in return caused me to fight for the agenda I knew I needed to accept.  

Obviously at that one point I was withheld from being able to worship Him & it was the most horrific feeling ever. Questioning my intention and motives of posting videos on Youtube of me singing worship songs is quite silly.  As long as God has me here on Earth, I will do so & will do this solely for the HONOR and GLORY of God. No matter how foolish I look, I'm gonna worship Him forever!!! I encourage you to do the same. :)

January 2012

January 2013